twO sides of love..

His side

-”tell her how you feel” is what my friends said
-so i picked up the phone
-called your house
-you answerd
-i said “i love you”
-and hung up right after
-the next day
-i told you it was a bet from a friend
-it was partly true
-but you didnt answer
-no sassy come back wich you allways do
-just stood there
-the walked away

My side

-he called my house
-i picked up
-he told me he loved me
-then hung up
-the next day
-i was going to tell you i loved you back
-but you said it was a bet
-i had everything planned out
-every move i planned
-every word
-but when you said that…
-i had nothing to say
-i stood and watched you
-as you broke my heart

what is like to love you?..

To love you is to daydream of you often, think of you so much, speak of you proudly, and miss you terribly when we are apart..

To love you is to cherish the warmth of your arms, the touch of your hands, the friendlyness of your smile, the loving sounds of your voice, and the happiness we share..

To love you is to never the adversity we have overcome, the tears we have shed, the plans we have made, the problems we have solved, and the pain of seperation..

To love you is to remmember joyfully the days we made memorable, the moments that will leave forever in our hearts, the dreams we hope for, the feelings we have for each other, the caresses and touches of love, and the exhilaration of love that feels our heart..

To love you is to need you, want you, hold you and know you as no one else can..

To love you is to realized that life without you would be no life at all..

I need a hug lord..

I dont know if were still the best of friends.. They dont understand what i feel, they dont know how to protect mE.. I dont understand why things exist in in this way, i did my part.. i tryd to be good for them to know that im a true friend.. I trust them, i treat them as my sisters, but they leave me hangging, i dont know if i cOuld stil find a true friend but the journey of my life is stil going on.. i can manage my self with out them, im not dull to depend with the person who can’t protect me.. They lost me, so i want to get over with our friendship.. im giving up.. i want to be alone.. i want to be independent.. its time for me to go with my own life with out friends.. coz i know only GOD can understand what i truly feel inside.. i need a hug lord!

4 people you will meet in life..

1st  is your self..

2nd is the one you love most..

 3rd is the one who love you most..

and 4th is the one you spend rhe rest of your life with..

Sadly, in this real life, these three people are usually not the same person.. The one you love most, doesnt love you.. The one who love you most, is never the one you love.. and the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love or the one who love you most.. she/he is the person who happens to be at the rigth time and at the rigth place..

Love and Teardrops..

LOVE  is very strange, it is uncoditional commiment to an imperfect individual, you need it but when you love ur’e making yourself destined for pain, you become addicted and dependent on that person, you become strong and at the same time, you open yourself up to being hurt.. LOVE can make you bear any kind of sacrifice, it can also make you feel stupid and act stupidly, sometimes when you love and end giving up so much of  yourself, you only discovered how much u’ve given when the person you love hurts you or has to say goodbye.. Then you realize, an important part of yourself is already with that person it goes away when he/she leaves you and you are left with a sickening empty feeling inside.. TEARS  are bound to shed from your  eyes no matter how you force yourself to keep them, and most TEARDROPS  ever shed in this earth is have been for love or lack of it, when tears dry, a silent loss stick to your heart for a long long time.. Well thats wat you get for caring so much about someone.. but how can you regret it?.. to give yourself freely and lovingly is the most beautiful thing you can do.. loving makes you real, loving also makes you cry.. and thas why TEARDROPS  is also beautiful.. Don’t be afraid to love, and when you love, show it fight for it.. coz there’s no such thing as contented life..

enOugh is not enOugh..

There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer;
no disease that enough love will not heal;
no door that enough love will not open;
no gulf that enough love will not bridge;
no wall that enough love will not throw down;
no sin that enough love will not redeem…
It makes no difference how deeply seated may be the trouble;
how hopeless the outlook; how muddled the tangle; how great the mistake.
A sufficient realization of love will dissolve it all.
If only you could love enough you would be
the happiest and most powerful being in the world…

Chance or Choice?

when you meet the right person to love,and the right place,at the right time,thats a CHANCE..

when you meet someone you’re attracted to,thats a CHANCE too..

being caught that there are many people out there who are more attractive,smarter,richer than ur partner,and yet you decided to love your partner just the same thats a CHOICE..

attraction comes to us by CHANCE.. but TRUE LOVE that lasts is truly a CHOICE..

a very nice story..

"When I was six years old I met him in the playground and he came up to me with a daisy, just the one, and knelt on both knees and asked me to marry him. So I pushed him over then ran away. Two days later he came over and asked if he could play cops and robbers with me and from that day on we played everyday.

At 11 on my first day of Secondary school I was so nervous but at lunch time he came to find me, and we sat down and ate lunch together. We did this everyday for an entire year. You were the first person I told about everything, about my crushes, about my lessons and about all the people I hated, and when I was 13 and thought I was the only one who had never been kissed, you offered to show me how, and by the tree in your backgarden we shared our first kiss.

At 15 we went to our first proper house party, and I got drunk. Even though I made a fool of myself you were there to help me stand strong. You didnt judge and you didnt make fun.

Over the next year we began to seperate, made different friends. I got my first serious boyfriend and you went through quite a few girlfriends. And then it got to May and that meant the prom. Everything had been arranged, I’d been getting my outfit for months and then the day before I found out my boyfriend had cheated on me. The first person I turned to was you. You turned up at my door with a bouquet of roses and a vintage 1950’s car.

I laughed that night
I cried that night

We had three glorious yars together, when everyday I would smile. Even on the last when your mother stood up, in the church infornt of your coffin and began reading from your diary:"I saw you when I was six stood by the bench in a blue checked dress and daisy shoes and
I needed to give an other daisy just because…. Becuase i loved you from that day on"His wedding vows written the day after prom, that I will never get to hear."

small love story..

Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because…
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t…
The girl started to cry softly and said:
Then you don’t love me…
The two continued to walk in silence. They
reached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose
and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough…"

signs

(base on the book that i have read)

crush ka nya kung:

1. lagi siyang nakatitig sau kahit walang dahilan..

2.nauutaL cya pag ng uusap kau..

3.lagi siyang naka smile (ala renier) pag nag uusap kau..

4.di cya mka titig sa mata moh..

5.excited cxa na makita ka after weekends or holiday..

6.lagi ka nyang teni-text kahit walang dahilan..

7.lagi siyang tumatawag sau..

8. lagi ka niyang ina-asar..

9.lagi siyang sweet sau..

10.lagi siyang nasa tabi moh..

11.ginagawan ka niya ng cd compilation ng fav song moh..

12.humihingi siya ng advice sa lovelife(minsan pinapasilos ka lang)..

13.hinahatid ka niya sa bahay nyo..

14.hinihiram nya notes moh,pag balik may letter..

15.tinitiis nya lahat ng sermon moh, at nangangakong di nah uulit..

stupid feelings..

 I have known myself to make too many mistakes in the past, I never let anyone find out how i made myself look like a fooL, I regretted a lot of things, things i wish i did, but never have the courage to do so, I really felt dumb inside..

 For so long, all i got from this stupid feelings were heartaches and tears, nothing more and nothing less, and for so long, I tried to mend my broken heart but evrytime i tried to put it together, it keep on falling apart, it keep on breaking, each and evry nigth, I have to fight back the tears which were begging to be shed..

 I hide evrything by smiling, I tried to assure evryone that i was okay, evrything was just fine, and few would ignore those lies, they’d see the sadness, the burden, the emptiness, and especially the loneliness in my eyes..

 I maybe too young to feel this, but believe me, this burden never laeves me..

 To the person who hurt me a lot, I want to thank you for breaking my heart, you made me a stronger and a better person now..

karma(wat comes around goes around)

 i’ve let go of my present luv coz i was stiL in luv with my past.. nakasakit aq.. i wEnt to my past and told him dat im back .. i heLd his hand, but thEn he startEd to let go.. nasaktan aq.. i was left aLone.. c present naging past na.. c past wala na.. pEople are ryt, ang luv my KARMA.. at sabi pa nila: "KARMA STRIKES TWICE" ilang bEses na masasaktan.. but now im looking forward with thE future.. isa lang masasabi q.. "LORD, dumating lang ang taOng mag mamahaL sa akin hanggang duLo.. pangakO, handa q na pOng harapin lahat ng karma q.. :’c

i just want one more day with you..

I’m so sad and depressed
Is all I want to do is rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can’t fight..

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near..

??..

Theres a point in life when you realize who matters.. who doesnt..and who is just wasting your time..

My mind doesnt want to continue wanting you but my heart wont let me stop..

Im just waiting for today to end and for tomorow to start..

mah qoutes..

 It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone…
but it takes a lifetime to forget someone..

my thougths..

 im so tired of being hurt.. i dont want to fall inlove again.. my life has not bEen wonderfuL.. luv is so unfair to me.. why shud i cant be happy wen it comes to love?.. i luv some one who could’nt luv me back.. i know im so stupid coz i let this feeLings ruin everything.. i let this feelings ruin my own life.. i know its wrong for me to say i luv him.. but i should move on.. i should let him go..